12/15/11

I was at work and I guess I was tired. One of the bosses came to the site at around 9:30pm. I went to go let him in and the first few words he said to me, "Do you have problems staying awake or something?" I was confused. I hadn't consciously fallen asleep or woken up. One moment I was looking at some papers, then the next he was there. It was really weird. He said he watched me sleep for 10 minutes before waking me up. I knew at that moment I just lost my job. I had received a warning before and was told if it happens again I'm fired.

The first thoughts that came into my mind were:

• this must be a test or something
• this happened because I didn't pray for help staying awake
• this happened because I haven't turned in tithing yet
• etc etc

But something about the thoughts didn't make any sense. I just couldn't figure out what.

As I was driving home, I had this sinking pit feeling in my chest and I felt really sad. I said aloud "I feel so defeated."

Seconds after I said that, I felt as if strength was added to me. I got a message from the Spirit saying:

"This wasn't a faith test. This wasn't supposed to happen. He didn't do this to you. This is work of the adversary. Don't worry, everything will be fine"

Then when I got home, I felt like I should look through the scriptures and found this:

"Pray always, that you may come off conqueror; yea, that you may conquer Satan, and that you may escape the hands of the servants of Satan that do uphold his work" - Doctrine & Covenants 10:5