5/10/12

There's been so much.. I've kinda stopped keeping track unfortunately..

I feel like noting something that happened today. I was on my computer listening to the scriptures. I listen instead of read.. and I felt like I should check my bank accounts. I didn't think much of it, so I kept doing what I was up to. Then I felt it stronger and I realized the feeling was a prompting. So I checked my bank accounts and noticed both were overdrawn. The bank was to close in less than an hour. I went to the bank and got them back in a positive balance. If I had waited until the next day, I would have gotten charged overdraft charges and that would have really messed me up. I'm thankful for the promptings of the Spirit warning me. I'm thankful that He knows us so well and knows what we need and loves us so much!!

12/18/11

I had read the article about the people paying off Kmart layaways and was really inspired. I started wishing that I could do something like that. Except I can't, at least not to the same amount. Especially with me being sure that I've lost my job. I give $1 everytime I go past the Salvation Army buckets. I feel like its not enough though. I want to do more to help.

Sunday morning, our 1st counselor, Brother Braathen asked me about my friend Sister Williams (Sister Shepherd; Christina). I didn't have an answer for him. It reminded me to check on her. So I texted her. Some time later, she texted me back and asked me to meet her at the singles ward. So I met her there and sat through  the rest of their sacrament meeting with her. After some talking, I found out she was somewhat concerned about having Christmas for her girls.

At that moment, I got a prompting from the Spirit:

"You wanted a chance to help? Here is your chance. The rest is up to you"

So I did. I helped get a couple things for her and her girls. When I gave the stuff to her, she started crying, which I wasn't expecting.

It felt really great to help :)

12/15/11

I was at work and I guess I was tired. One of the bosses came to the site at around 9:30pm. I went to go let him in and the first few words he said to me, "Do you have problems staying awake or something?" I was confused. I hadn't consciously fallen asleep or woken up. One moment I was looking at some papers, then the next he was there. It was really weird. He said he watched me sleep for 10 minutes before waking me up. I knew at that moment I just lost my job. I had received a warning before and was told if it happens again I'm fired.

The first thoughts that came into my mind were:

• this must be a test or something
• this happened because I didn't pray for help staying awake
• this happened because I haven't turned in tithing yet
• etc etc

But something about the thoughts didn't make any sense. I just couldn't figure out what.

As I was driving home, I had this sinking pit feeling in my chest and I felt really sad. I said aloud "I feel so defeated."

Seconds after I said that, I felt as if strength was added to me. I got a message from the Spirit saying:

"This wasn't a faith test. This wasn't supposed to happen. He didn't do this to you. This is work of the adversary. Don't worry, everything will be fine"

Then when I got home, I felt like I should look through the scriptures and found this:

"Pray always, that you may come off conqueror; yea, that you may conquer Satan, and that you may escape the hands of the servants of Satan that do uphold his work" - Doctrine & Covenants 10:5 

12/12/11

message from the Holy Ghost on my way home from work this morning:

"He hears and sees everything for everyone. Something to keep in mind with your thoughts: If He came down today and was standing speaking with you, would you say those thoughts to Him directly? If yes, then go ahead.  If no, then you shouldn't be thinking them. Although you may not think of your thoughts as direct communication, they are. Just as prayer is, but prayer is more powerful than thoughts."

not ok to sing along..

I recently purchased Road Less Traveled by David Osmond. I love the CD. One of the songs on it though is called "Help Thou My Unbelief". When I first listened to it I thought it was pretty so I decided to sing along. Well after the first few times, when the words went through my head, I was getting a message from the Spirit of:

"You shouldn't sing this because it doesn't you don't have any problems with unbelief"

I figured, well yeah that's right. But I still like the song so I would do it anyway. Each time I did, I would get the same message. I started to make excuses for singing along and justifying my reasons for it.

Then tonight I was doing it again and it hit me harder:

"You shouldn't sing this song. You shouldn't listen to it. It brings across the wrong message when you do so. You sound as if you have disbelief which we know you do not"

I really started thinking about that. Realized that I was making excuses and trying to justify it. If I need to justify it then I likely shouldn't do it. So I'm going to stop listening to that song altogether.

Outside of that song, the CD is fantastic! Check it out...

12/11/11

I was working midnight - 8am Sunday morning. I was having a really hard time with the shift. It required going up and down multiple flights of stairs constantly and there were people painting so I was having to breath in paint fumes as well. I was miserable. All I could think about was how bad I felt and how much I wanted out of there. Time was dragging by.

Then at 1:59am, I got this message from the Holy Ghost:

"Dwell not on your trials. Take action of what is requested and you will be fine"

What I gathered from that is if I stop thinking about how awful I feel and just do what I'm there to do then the shift would go by easier. So I applied that and it worked. I stopped thinking about what I was doing and just started doing it. Before I knew it, it was 8am and time to go home.

December 9/10

I was driving home from work. I was on I-405 N when this truck merged onto the freeway. I can't remember at what point... anyway... they were swerving all over the place. It was scary to watch so I kept my distance behind them. We both merged onto I-5 N. They were still driving erractically. I became rather worried. Thinking the driver is probably tired or inebriated. Then these thoughts of, what if they got into a crash, which was completely possible as they were almost driving into the cars next to them. What if something happened to them. What if I was the last one to see them before they wrecked. Any other drivers were speeding past them, I was the only one behind them.

I thought there was nothing I could do, as the feeling that I need to do something came over me. I thought, is there anything I can do? At that point, I got this from the Holy Ghost:

"You can call 911 and tell them what you see and give them the information you know"

The thought of calling the police worried me. I don't want any run ins with the police. I asked, what do I do? I got this in return:

"I'm leaving this action up to you. You know what you can do. Whether or not you choose to take action is your choice to make"

I continued to follow them. I decided I needed to do something. I couldn't have it on my conscience  of what if's and  I could've done something and didn't. I called 911 and told them what I saw and gave them as much info as I could.

I continued to follow them until when we got to exit 189, they pulled over into the shoulder. Its my exit anyway so I kept going and came home. It would have been strange if I had pulled over with them.

I couldn't help but feel that I should have called 911 sooner. I got the message of:

"You need not to worry. You did the right thing."

That helped me feel better. I just hope that state patrol found them and that they are ok.